5 months!

 Leaves turned yellow then brown then fell, dry and crushed, only to be dampened by winter's rain and cold and the one-time snow. I blink and suddenly I realize I've been here for nearly 5 months. The person I was earlier in the term wouldn't believe this, because she'd still be bleary eyed from crying and battling the seemingly obligatory fever she gets whenever she's put in a new environment. Sucks, but it did create a bonding moment with some flatmates. 

Exam season is here!!! I have one more paper on Monday, and yet here I am, writing. I've had an itch to write and listen to songs and write again all day. I guess that is a good thing, but when compared with the fact that I still have some revision to do before this Monday's paper, perhaps I'd better get on that instead. 

I'm still finding my way around what this blog should be about. I write what is closest to me in my personal journal - a white book that about bursting at its seams now because of the things I stuff into it. Perhaps every entry I type out in here should be labelled brain dump. So far that's what it's seemed to be. 

I've seen a lot of seagulls here Iman, as you must know. Maybe it was just a coincidence that we saw so many crows last you were here. I'm winning now. I wonder if you read this page often, or even at all. 

A thought has been plaguing my mind recently - I've been getting a lot of Islamophobic content on my socials lately, and it's been disturbing as I'm a Muslim myself. Seeing people spew hate and believe Islam and its people are violent quite honestly shakes me to my core, and makes me scared. In fact, I've been wary around my friends, in self-conscious fear that that is what they actually think of me, when the bigger part of me is certain that they know better than to assume that of me. I dig this fear deeper into myself by looking up statistics of hate crimes, of people actually admitting to hold prejudices against Muslims, and I just end up even more scared. Can one say that this is just part and parcel of being in a foreign country, where you're the minority?

Sigh. I'd best shower and go to bed soon. That will put these thoughts to rest.